The rain was heavy last night, so I ended up bunking over at Shir’s.

This morning, I had no other options but to borrow some of Non’s clothes to go to work. It was a bit tricky, considering that she’s a good few inches shorter and one size smaller.

I left the house wearing a fitted top, black trousers and black jacket. Corporate look, yes. But should you look closely, you’d realize that the trousers I had on were stretchable flare, with slit at the bottom of each leg. Corporate look, my ass! Non even chuckled, “I normally wear these when I go clubbing”

I laid low the whole day - because of the clothes - but also coz I was an unpleasant company. Came close to losing my temper many times, and was on Messenger complaining to a dear friend, Riz:


Riz: hmmm...guess what?
Riz: u r just listless...and bored.... and lonely
Riz: told you, you need a hug
I: gee thanks for pointing all that is wrong in my life
Riz: a hah! That’s what wrong Arysa!
Riz: being bored and listless and lonely are not "wrong", that’s all normal
Riz: nothing wrong with your life u know? You are a successful, attractive, beautiful person
Riz: with a kind heart, in a steady job...
Riz: you have your health, a roof over your head
Riz: tangan, kaki, jari semua cukup kan?
I: yes cukup
I: success is relative
I: attractive is relative
I: beautiful is relative
Riz: that’s the problem, everything is "relative". But relative to what?
I: i dont know
I: dah la Riz, ignore me
Riz: mana boleh ignore.... macam cancer tau
I: dah la… I am just a sulky ungrateful bitch
Riz: BETOLLLLLL

When counting my blessings, I have to count my friends twice.

For Riz, who told me to sign up for AAM (in case the car breaks down again)

For KZ, who reminded me that, no matter how jahat I am, and whatever sin I commit, I must take care of my prayers

For Malena, who rolls her eyes and gives me her famous I-told-you-so looks

For Ryan, who tells me to listen to my mother (he hasn’t a clue how difficult this would be)

For Yin, who told me not to drown in self-pity, as I need to realize that there’s still a world out there, despite my sadness

For Non, with whom I could borrow flare stretchable trousers

For Za, who never seem to run out of inane topics to talk about

For Vardamir, who shares his honest thoughts always (whether or not I agree with him is a different story altogether)

For Zsazsa, Ayeen & Niena… For the twins… For Adriana…

I have a whole lot of people around me, and they never fail to be there when I call for them. They don’t always tell me what I want to hear, but they’d always give me what I need.

And for that, I am thankful.